I guess I've never had a job that inspired me.  I know there are people that love what they do and wake up and can't wait to go to work.  I have a cousin who teaches Creative Writing and she feels that way, most of the time.  I am one of those people who is good at a lot of things but has no driving passion for any one thing.  I wish I could say ever since I was a little girl I wanted to be an astronaut or a veterinarian or president or something!  I just never did.  I like to do a lot of things and I am never bored.  I pet my dog, read, watch tv, exercise, practice yoga, meditate, knit, talk on the phone, blog and I never have been offered a job doing any of those things.  So just to live and survive I have had a million jobs.  Started with waitress, bartender, restaurant manager then moved on to sales.  I needed more steady income so I became a bank officer.  I felt like an actress every day putting on my business suit and my heels I finally quit.  In between I did my favorite job so far wife and mother.  Truthfully I have been more consistent on the mother job than the wife.  I've been married three times.  Divorced the first two.  Sadly husband number three was the love of my life but he died last year and part of me died with him.  Now I am a widow and I can't stand thinking about even looking for a job.  The idea gives me a panic attack.  I hope some day I am inspired to pursue a passion that turns into a paying job. I'm still too heartbroken to think about ever getting married again.

Widowkoda there is a boy I know who wants to hookup with me every time I see him at the Mall but he never calls or texts me and I saw him at the movies last weekend with a loser strait dork!  What's Up?

  OK Whats up here's what it is.  In the olden days when widowkoda was still hot, hookin up was called "free love".  The way it worked was guys would wanna hookup (like they always do). When wk said no they would say "what kind of square  are you? never heard of free love? whatrya uptight or something ya loser?" or worse yet they would suggest I was the worse kind of uncool _"a virgin".  So wanting to be cool and part of the swingin sixties your friend the widow let some gross pig bums get with her.  I mean if he is a lousy kisser I can guarantee he is not gonna get better the further you go!  Even worse poor naive young me thought boys wouldn't like me or would like me better if I opened my legs as quick as you could say "Free Love is Cool".  After too many of these very unsatisfying sessions and several world class cases of friction burn and several painful uti's young me realized that I was just falling for the latest male scam to get in a girls pants.  No matter what they say deep down guys believe that if they hookup with everyone in the world they are king stud.  If a girl does the same thing she is a dirty pig slut.  They will deny this to the death but actions are more important than words.  The words are "Everyone hooksup I won't disrespect you after"  but there actions are they take the girl who didn't "hookup" to the movies.